reborn

I stared the shadow of death in the eyes

as he lurked over your shoulder

I know this is inevitable

i'm feeling sick, and getting older

I didn't tell you what i saw 

or how it made me feel

because its hard to tell these days

what's a dream and what is real

I know your heart is heavy

weighed down by your world

I miss the way you made me feel

and the way you said ooooh girrrl

we are free

you and me

to explore the world alone

there are places i wanted you to see

people I thought you should meet

but those dreams have been repressed

 one by one they came

and one by one they left 

Your back is breaking

my insides, shaking

I've been here before

you baby blanket covers my naked body

I lay motionless on the floor

still breathing

thoughts racing

eyes crying

I wanted to give you more