Opening up...

8:35 a.m.

My alarm clock woke me up about 3 minutes ago. The first thought that came into my mind was about the guy with fuck you tatted on his head… His name was "fuck you Frank" at least that's what he told Jessica and I. He said all of his friends call him that because he is constantly saying "FUCK YOUUUUUU" Any ways, before we went to the psychic I had decided to completely open myself up to the universe. We ordered our coffee and walked into the dining area. Everybody looked tired and miserable… "tough crowd" Were the only words that came to mind.Which i believe, broke the tension in the room. We had a good laugh. So, I had opened myself up to the energies around me. Down next to us sat a man named Edgar… He had a Strawberry milkshake. We  small talked a bit, mostly about my bad day and break up as Jess was up getting her own coffee. He gave me and jess the first sips of his milkshake, how sweet? He was a very familiar soul to me… I felt like we had met before. When I told him I felt like I had known him he said "That's because I'm the man of your dreams…" well, well… Haven't heard THAT one before!

Back to Fuck you Frank… we were leaving and I waved goodbye to them from the window… But he was drunk, and i was open… so he pushed open the door thinking we wanted to come back inside. We went in and stood at their table talking. He was with a girl with a beautiful smile. They offered us some vodka, they were chugging vodka and Blue gatorade at Mcdonalds. The thought of Vodka makes my stomach turn and jess isn't much of a drinker either, so we kindly declined their offer. Back to my point I have been trying to get at since I woke up and felt the urge to write the thought, ohh FOCUS. 

We were anxious to cross the street to see the psychic. Psychic? the guy said… "I'll do a reading for you, i'm psychic" HAHAHA Alright, So he took my hand which was stained with mascara from crying all day, and started "reading" He told me I was gonna die, which i know is inevitable. after that he looked at my ring and said be happy, tomorrow, there will be sun… That's the first thing I thought of when I came out of my sleep this morning. Him holding my hand in his hand, two complete strangers. Everything changes when you're open. He didn't say fuck you to us once, but his spirit did wake me up this morning and the message it carries is hey, lifes not so bad. things shouldn't be so heavy. I'm thankful for the way I feel at the present moment and I can almost taste the sunshine. As crazy as that may sound...

Franks outward appearance would be considered to some scary and battered and heavy but his soul, oh so light. I'm glad I opened myself up and I feel lucky to experience human connection on a deeper level. 

Yesterday, Jesse told me what I didn't want to hear. The Power is all inside of YOU. It's hard when you realize you've got to make a change. But it's Inevitable. Just like death... 

If anyone sees Frank tell him that I said Thanks for opening up and bringing light into my day. You are a beautiful soul and like me, i believe you feel trapped inside of your past and trapped inside of your own body. I know lately I've been feeling trapped inside of my own body and I don't belong. When you showed me the tattoo on your head I honestly saw you in me and i in you. I appreciate your lightheartedness because it awoke me with beautiful thoughts. 

This is an example of getting what you need from the Universe, God, Buddha without even really asking for it. 

I didn't wake up today feeling gutwrenched and lovesick but I feel ambitious and I feel growth of my mind, heart, and soul. 

Listening to: Dog days are over by Florence and the machine.

The drums in this song heal my spirit.

"Leave all your love and your longing behind, you can't carry it with you if you want to survive"

THE DOG DAYS ARE OVER.