chain reaction

"maybe if i spray wd 40 on my heart, the doors will open without noise"

 the sound of distractions flood the crowded streets of the city in my mind

I've lost nearly all concept of time

Days turn to months and months turn to years

I close my eyes and I'm face to face with my fears

Am I a facade, or just so lost in my head

I follow my heart and look where I've been led

to a land full of of machines

eager to be fed

where a man almost convinced me

that we are already dead

"it's all for you!" He told me with truth in his eyes

in the heart of a city, that's just living a lie

But I won't live a lie, I'd rather die.

they come in 3's

Godspeed.

A term I have been seeing and hearing in the past couple of days. I was driving and I saw it graffitied on the back of a pickup truck, and it got my wheels turning. Pretty much everything creates a spark in my brain, my heart, my soul. I live my life through signs and symbolism. Things happen so synchronistically, it trips me out. I feel such a pull from something so deep within. It's like knowing the unknown. Words can't describe it because it is unknown. I'm being guided. I have blossomed. I have to say that the breakthrough I experienced was painful. Not just the kind of pain that resonates deep deep inside, but physically… in my throat, my head, and my heart. For days I felt like I was going to purge. I had no appetite. I had an extreme sense of self-awareness. I was almost in a dreamlike state. I began seeing others in a different light and feeling very sensitive and vulnerable towards anyone I laid eyes on. I remember one day I was at a traffic light by the santa monica pier and I was listening to Blood red summer by Coheed and Cambria and the words "what did I do to deserve" were being sung repetitively. My eyes wandered to the sidewalk where I saw a crippled man trying to make it through a crowd. He was an attractive very nicely dressed young black male. He looked completely normal, but he could hardly lift his own feet off the ground to take a step. "What did I do to deserve, what did I do to deserve?" For a brief moment, I was that man. I felt his pain, his embarrassment, his frustration. On the brink of tears, I started realizing how fortunate i am to be in the body that I'm in. I sent him my love. And that's that.

Godspeed.

Everyone should make just a small effort to be nice to people. We are all the same. Just living our lives. So instead of talking on your bluetooth or texting while you're waiting in line at the friendly neighborhood Starbucks, ask someone how their day is going. Smile at somebody, or just breathe and take in your surroundings. Be aware. You'll be surprised who you'll meet, what you'll learn, and how you'll feel. I'm the kind of girl who will go up and talk to ANYBODY. I don't keep tabs on my cell phone constantly, because I'd rather communicate and connect directly with the people around me in the present moment and handle phone calls and text messages when I'm alone in my car or at home.  You never know what you could be missing out on…Technology is beginning to replace the realness of it all. Sure all of your little games and trendy iphone apps are cool and fun and all, but unglue your eyes from your fancy screen for 5 minutes and take a look around.There's nothing that turns me off more than hanging out with someone who is constantly texting or making phone calls. It's just rude, if you ask me. Be in the present, appreciate the people around you, wake up and smell the mother fucking roses. 

Everybody dies but not everybody lives

Read this or don't.

But you should!

http://adishakti.org/age_of_aquarius.htm

Pretty much.

Everything is a cycle. Our lives, habits, routines, thoughts.

When Things are good, they are great. When things are bad, they're not so bad...


I just want to find what I've been looking for. My whole life I've never really known what it is that I'm seeking. But I know that it is on a higher plane. I don't know if anyone or everyone else feels the push. But I do... and I try so very hard to understand where it comes from, I'll just let it happen.

I CHOOSE

I choose to be present
I choose to speak truth
I choose to love
I choose to follow my dreams

I'm sick of being held back by myself.

I choose to LET GO.


Journey of the spirit.